The ebbs and flows of life

Sometimes, when there’s already momentum, it gets really easy to keep going. I’d like to begin by giving thanks to this lovely space for allowing me to really take things slow and get a bit of writing done while I’m still feeling really inspired. I’d also like to give thanks to the universe for allowing me the time and energy to come together with my inner world.

I live for days when I get to check in with myself like this. I’m tired from work, but somehow something in me gives me the motivation to get out of the house, get my errands done, and allow myself to take a moment to really be present with myself, right here, and check in with my own well-being. I needed to be okay first, before I worry about anything else.

Here, in this quaint little space that I just found in the middle of the hustle and bustle of the city, I feel at ease, like time is slowing down. It’s a nice feeling.

I find myself keeping to myself a lot more now than ever before, because I find it so hard to build trust with others. I really feel safest with myself, and I find a lot of comfort in doing a lot of things on my own now. I’ve accepted the fact that this is how I am now. I find myself feeling a lot more connected with myself, and being alone gives me a lot of strength. The trust I don’t have in others, I find that it has grown stronger in myself. I trust that I will be able to handle a lot of adversities on my own, and that’s okay.

Living in my introverted world gives me an equal amount of pain and peace. It’s painful because when I’m alone, I let myself feel things a lot more; I process my emotions head-on instead of tucking them away. And peace, because after processing my emotions, I find myself landing in a place of acceptance. With peace comes happiness, or more like, contentment. And contentment is a good place to be.

What I hope for is that I’ll have more moments where I feel aligned with myself. It’s a great place to be when my mind and my heart aren’t at war with each other. I want to find more balance in myself. I’d like to be more centred, letting things ebb and flow.

Love,
Ashhy